Pandemic Shakespeare
April 28, 2021
Back when the first big shutdown happened last year - businesses, schools, restaurants, and of course, pretty much all film, television, and theatre - I was still in some of the roughest months of my own grief and wondering what in the heck was going to happen next in what was already a pretty terrible year.
Turned out - it was that I would get a call from Christopher Carter Sanderson, director of Gorilla Rep (a company I have worked with a number of times over the years, from “Joan of Arc” - one of my first professional plays in NYC, to “A Midsummer Night’s Dream” as both Helena and Titania in separate years). He explained that in the horror and uncertainty that this nascent pandemic was bringing, it also brought with it an opportunity to do something that hadn’t really been done before, and something he had wanted to do for a long while: an all 100% close up, complete version of Shakespeare’s “Macbeth”. And he wanted to see if I was interested in the role of Lady Macbeth.
I was definitely interested. And also definitely terrified. It was understood we would all be shooting remotely, only seeing the person in the scene with us during communal zoom rehearsals. My process ended up being to just leave the camera rolling as I did my takes, imagining my scene partner down the barrel of the lens. It was an amazing experience - difficult, and challenging to be responsible for all the aspects of shooting (lighting, sound, camera, and actor), but it also gave me an outlet (and a fitting one) for all the emotions still churning in me from everything that had happened in the last four to five months. The loss, the grief, the anger, the confusion, and, every now and again, some hope.